i feel really embarrassed for being fictio/nkin for some reason haha fuck…..
i have so much hw to do and i have a math test tomorrow but holy fuck i cant.. do it……… i am suffering so much rn lmao kill me!!!!!!!!
actually now that i think about it my mom makes up some bullshit excuse to keep me from getting antidepressants every time its brought up but… we dont…. really have any other option anymore. im not gonna just pull myself out of this through sheer willpower i need medication or things are only going to get worse
wow that was probably the most helpful session ive had yet….. and im probably gonna get antidepressants within the next couple of months so maybe that will make things easier for me
ive been wearing this kirby pin on my lanyard at school for weeks now and i finally got my first “is that jigglypuff” today
Don’t say it
Remove from the contraption of which they are held, so that they may be in a state of personal freedom.
#death #negative #suicide (on mobile sry)
i dont really think people would care if i died and i dont see much of a point in being alive myself so uh. why am i still here anyway
graduating high school with grades that are acceptable enough to not make my parents scream at me 24/7, getting into college for dirt cheap because i got a bunch of fine arts scholarships, gettign a bunch of degrees and shit in music, becoming a decently-paid orchestral percussionist in some fancy well-known symphony (or maybe getting onto nintendos music team somehow….), spending money on cute clothes and instruments and kirby merchandise, never having romantic partners or kids but having a lot of fun with friends, enjoying my adult life as much as possible because my adolescence was incredibly stressful and i would probably die very young if i continued to live life with this much stress nearly every day
(dont feel like writing something out rn so i made another joke to make light of the fact that im stressed to hell and back about everything rn)